So it has been forever since I have posted anything on here. I don't really know why it has taken me so long. Maybe I find the things I write about boring and pointless. Or maybe its because both my computers have broken and being worked on now. Luckily for me and anyone bored enough to read what I type my boyfriend has given me a net book to use in the meantime till my computers are fixed. I can not wait till one of them are in working order. Net books are handy and so light. I put this computer in my handbag. It's nice, however after a while of using the net book as my main computer source I have found some negatives. I really don't like small screens I have learned. It is hard to do important documents for school and hard for me to play farmtown on facebook that I have become very addicted to. I suggest that anyone with a facebook pick up on this game and add me as your neighbor. I know this sounds retarded, the game that is but you if you like being in charge and organize and staying on schedule and simply need something to pass time by or distract you from boyfriends/girlfriends (not that I do this....ok maybe a little) and homework then THIS IS THE GAME FOR YOU! Okay, now that I am finished with that little advertisement on with the update.

BOYFRIEND:
So this Saturday will be my and Griffin's 6 month anniversary. I am still shocked that it has been six months already. It went by really fast, but at the same time I feel like we have been together for a long time. He really completes me. I didn't think that we would have a relationship like we do. I mean I went through some rough times with my ex-boyfriend and during those times Griffin was there to listen to me and my new problems with the previous relationship during those 3 am coffee visits at my place of employment. Then once I knew that I would not be able to save the relationship I had fought for so with, is when Griffin became more then the guy at my drive-thru window. Don't think that I just jumped from one guy to the him. The previous relationship had been over for almost a year at that time. I didn't put any moves on Griffin. After talking for about 4 months he asked me out to dinner so I jumped on that opportunity. If for a free dinner and good company was all I thought it end up as. Only after that first date we pretty much started seeing each other everyday since, and didn't really know an exact date we became official so we set it for Feb. 1. Six months later we are still going and I never thought I would find someone to complete me the way he does. He is such a great person and very easy going. I can talk to him about anything. I know that when I'm falling in life he will be the person to catch me right before I hit the ground. He has taught me so much about myself and about what I want. Knowing his story and the life he once had made me fall more and more in love with him. I never thought I would be able to say I could marry this person after my previous relationship, but I am glad I can. I am glad that I have been given a second chance in love.

WORK:
So after a year of working the overnight shifts I have finally been moved to days and let me say how freaking happy I am about that. When my home store closed I was working at Olive Garden still. The only way to keep my job was to do the overnights. At that time I didn't mind. I didn't have friends to hang out with anymore, since my best friend Viviana moved to Gainesville, so I bounced from job to job and school full time. Looking back now I don't know how I did it. I saw that my grades dropped a little but not a whole bunch. I gained 30 pounds from the overnights....dang coffee with sugar. So now that I am off the overnights my goal is to lose 35 pounds. It's really hard. I didn't eat that much but I learned that sleep deprivation causes weight gain. I don't look like I gained 30 pounds but the scale does not lie. So now that I am moved into my place now I need to set a schedule to working out everyday. I just mapped out a one mile course around the neighborhood to run...I just need to start running them. Anyways, back to the subject of work. I am still adjusting to the day crew at work. I have found out that most of my co-workers are shady. I feel like I am very unwelcome there. There are a few people I love working with and when I know that I am working with those people I look forward to work. But most of the morning shifts I work I dread. I either feel like they are talking bad about me. Which totally blows my mind because I don't know what I could have done, not done, or said to make them treat me the way they do. Also I feel like I do most of the slave work. It doesn't bother me, actually it keeps me busy. Its better doing all the crap work instead of just standing there in silence wishing for someone to come in so I had a reason to talk. Another thing that keeps bugging me is the feeling that my store manager doesn't really care for me. I have nothing against him. I think that he is a good guy and I enjoy his stories and the funniness he has. The one thing I have noticed is you can tell who he favors and that gets annoying, especially when you can tell that you're not on that list. You can also see who is favored by the amount of hours given or the days given. I think that he should worry about the people in his store and how many hours they would like before hiring others. I know that I am willing to work 40 hours because well I need 40 hours in order to survive. The thing he says is he has to account for everyone else which is fine, I get that. The thing I don't get is when there are people wanting more hours but he is willing to hire new people instead of giving his current staff the extra hours, but that is just my opinion.

ROOMMATES:
Oh where do I even begin right there. This subject is probably a blog of it's own but I figure if you have read this much you must be interested in my current events taking place in my life. So like I said earlier, I moved out. Probably should have stayed in the nest a little longer but what the heck. I wanted to have some more freedom and I needed something to feel more alive I guess. So I moved in with my friend, whom I met at the drive-thru window, I probably should stop doing that, anyways we hit it off really well. About five or six months of just talking she asked if I needed some roommates. So I took that opportunity to risk it. I moved in with her and her friend who I met the day we signed the lease. Everything went really well with getting the place and the finances. Amy and I became really good friends. We found that we had similar lives and went through the same struggles. It was really nice having someone to talk about the same things you have experienced. So a few months went on and of course there were plenty of disagreements. The main thing that I learned about Amy was how unreliable she was. She would make some plans with me and Griffin and we would sit around for her waiting at the house for hours at a time. When we finally heard from her she had something big happen to her. Little things like that. In the condos that we lived in, they are super strict...like no parking in the grass. Your car would get towed even if your tire was on a blade of grass and no I am not kidding about this. We had a one car garage too. This really got annoying. So three girls living together, three cars, two parking spots. Now during the week wasn't bad at all because I would work during the nights. Most mornings when I would get home one or both roommates wouldn't be there because they stayed at friends or their boyfriend/boy's houses toy. One rule we had is if you were not at the apartment your car was not there either. So if you were with your friend and they drove then you were to move your car to the visitor parking leaving available parking to the other two roommates. That sounds fair right? Amy was the one who came up with rule and I remember thinking...why didn't I think about that. Tatiana was really bad at the parking situation. Leaving her car in the driveway when no one was in the garage, parking her car in the grass, having her friends park in the grass. Let's just say it got really annoying. The weekend that pushed me over the edge on the parking situation was the weekend that Tatiana, amy, and their mutual friend left town to get away. Tatiana's car in the garage, their friend's car in the driveway leaving me with no parking. I was so upset. I called them and let them know how dumb it was of them to do that. At first they were really sorry and said they would turn around and take car of the situation. Then about a minute after they said that they called saying how they are sorry about what they did. They didn't think about it. It wouldn't happen again but in the meantime while they were gone I had to deal with it. They said they didn't think I would be home because they hadn't seen me. Keep in mind my car is always gone throughout the week while I was at work. I would come home and sleep. I would wake up and go back to work. When all they did was work and hang out and never home of course they are not going to notice that I am there and not out having a great time and not coming home like they did. That weekend I had to park my car in the visitor parking and walk from the front gate clear to the back of the addition to my house while they had their friend's car in the driveway, who didn't pay rent nor lived there. That was the breaking point. When the girls came home they banned together and made my life hell. Complaining about everything I did, throwing trash in my room that didn't belong to me but still went in my room to use my stuff. They complained about me leaving a little fan on while I was gone, but at the same time would have every light in that house on every time I came home. It was a really big mess and a great big lesson learned.
My current roommates are amazing. It's like I have my own place. I have my space where I can be alone or if I wanted to be around others I could. I love it so far.

That is a really big update. I can't really think about much to write so until next time!

Much Love
-Jamie-

Wow, reading my past posts have really made me realize how much I changed and grown. I didn't realize how depressed I was which is why I was possibly making Florida miserable for myself. So since the last post about being alone and such I came to realize that I was never alone. I have my true friends here with me and a friend up north that were never gone. I had God that had to throw a brick at me for me to let him take over and tell me (and for me to actually believe Him) that everything was going to be okay. He has a different path for me to take previous to the one before where I thought He wanted me to go.

I had come to the point in my life where I thought I was losing everything. Obviously if you have been reading. Anyways, I left the comfort of my home state and town and was forced against my will to move to Florida. At that time I had amazing friends, who never talk to me know, funny how distance and time will do that to you on more the one occasion. I had a boyfriend who I thought was the one for me. We never had any problems till I moved and I guess the true colors came out. Although he did a lot for me and cared or seemed to care that is when we were together it was like the distance was an excuse of not to care or show it anyways. I do admit that I had very limited time. With working crazy hours and trying to make the best of things our communication skills toward one another fell (life lesson number 1: always have communication, no matter the topic or situation or the distance between two hearts). As time went by with mistakes on both parts we fell apart completely and my world came crashing down, or so I thought at the time.

Now a lot of time has passed by and a lot of has changed. After losing all that I knew, or my comfort blanket if you will, I had to start over. So I went to my friend's church, suppose to be a one time visit and I've been going ever since. Funny how things like that happen. See God does have a sense of humor and I'll more into that later. After attending this church and immediately feeling an impact I felt like I was getting back on my feet. So here I was still single but having fun with friends, getting back into school, working two jobs with crazy hours, and finding out who I am all over again.

Okay, on to the jobs. So I have been really freaking stressed and never having any time for myself. I work at starbucks on the overnights three days a week and then at olive garden about five to six days a week which means no days off unless that one day both fell on the same day....never happened. So I became so stressed that I was blinded to it i think. I didn't realize what I was putting my body through.  About four months of arguing with the managers to get my schedule right so that the hours didn't overlap starbucks or school which was impossible. I think these people had brains the size of a peanut and I'm not even joking. I wrote out my schedule with every available time, where I would be and the time I would need to be to the next place. When you think about it they only needed to be cautious about three days of the week but they seemed to mess that up every time and I ended up running around trying to get to the next place on time. After doing that for quite some time it caught up to me. Apparently I wasn't smiling at a table during one of these chaotic moments and that cost me my job. Now I did have a major break down. It seemed like when everything was getting good BOOM something is thrown at you and you become once more a chicken with its head cut off....seeing the sense of humor in God huh? Now luckily my starbucks team is amazing and fully understands. I was immediately moved to full time which will pay the bills and that is it. No fun but I figured fun can come later in life when I'm not in school and having to do crazy schedules. Now to get me through this break down I was dealing with, I had an amazing friend and an amazing boyfriend. YES I said it a boyfriend, a new boyfriend....sigh...more about that in a sec. So anyways I was fired from yet another comfort blanket. One thing I realized from having not worked as a server with crabby, nothing is good enough for me people, I realized how less stress I am. I never realized how stressful that job was till I didn't have it anymore. But it feels great. Now I have time to update this thing and time to focus on school.

Okay boyfriend time....wow is all I have to say. Okay this really should be a new post but oh well just go get a snack maybe something to drink and then come back and finish this part....

oh your back ok. So this guy is so amazing let me tell you. Like I thought I knew what love felt like before but wow did he prove that wrong. So it all started maybe five months ago or so during my ups and down with the previous break up and I got to the point that I was like whatever I quit you win God. I was done with relationships. I told myself no more just get yourself through school and go from there. Ok so anyways like I said before about working at Starbucks, I do the over nights and let me tell you they are not that exciting unless you work with right people which I have an awesome team and you get your favorite customers coming through. Doing the over nights we get a lot of cops trying to stay awake as they keep us safe, college kids who are avoiding homework (that was me at one point), drunks, creepy taxi drivers that are like mid forties and think they have a chance with twenty year olds, and then the face you never forget and the voice that you know instantly when you hear it. So this guy would come in around the same time every day well at least on the days....well nights that I worked. He instantly became my favorite customer, not only is he attractive but no matter what time it was he always had a smile on his face and it was an addicting smile. The first night he left my window I was like wow he is so nice. I never really thought about hey maybe him and I will date. I mean I was sure he had a girlfriend. I was positive he wasn't married...yes I looked at his left ring finger that first night...I had to know if there was a small chance...come on, what girl doesn't do that. So each time he came through I would strike a small conversation and interestingly enough he seemed to be interested in the convos. So I had to make a move. I didn't want to jump out and say hey I like you lets see where this can go. I thought I was dropping hints that i was interested. Turns out that he just thought I was being nice. When you think about it when have you gone to starbucks and a rude mean barista is serving you. Nope...they give us crack to  be all chirpy no matter what time of the night or day it is. Now you know the secret, Umm just don't tell anyone I told you. So christmas comes around and I was like hmm...maybe I should this guy a card. That way he could be like maybe she likes me and then if he wasn't interested he could be like aww that was a really nice. So finally after about four months of drive thru window, five minute conversations and a couple of weeks of not seeing my favorite grande nonfat with whip toffee nut latte customer I was like alright whatever I scared him away back to not trying again and just being done with guys and relationships. Now this is the part that you see Gods sense of humor again. I get a letter when I went to work from him with his number. Apparently he was switched to days which explained the absence of him. So I called again thinking wow he really is interested in me. So after texting for a little bit we went on a date and it was amazing not weird at all and now I am so happy to call him my boyfriend. I have to say sorry to all those single girls out there I got the last great guy sorry! So I have never been this happy in my life and things are getting better. I'm so excited to see what lies ahead. well I think i bored you long enough and now you have an update and can see that I am fine. I didn't decide that I should drop off the face of the earth. Well until next time....take care

Much Love
-Jamie-